StuPiD . .

Assalamualaikum........

I am a bad friend. SELFISH. Jealous. Cannot give commitment. Cannot do work. Stupid. What else?

What should I do? Some peoples out there crying, tension all because of me! I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I make many people mad at me. I just can’t do work! I’m so slow. I don’t know why :’( When I do something when I’m stressed, they mad at me. They mock me. They don’t know my life! They don’t know how my situation! I know everyone got problems, but they are strong. They can handle it. But I can’t! I’m weak! So can you let me be? Yes I know what I did is wrong but that’s the only way instead of praying. If you want to stop me from doing that, tell me another effective way and prove it to me. Not mocking me. Not just told me “Don’t do that” “Are you stupid?” “It is a sin”. I know all that! Sometimes I did that because I want attention. I want someone just sit there for me and listen. Just listen and hug me. I want a warm hug from someone. It can reduce my pain. *sigh*

I’m sorry because you got a friend like me.  If I am your ‘friend’.